we just had our 7 year anniversary too they say it has something to do with the timing of having your last child maybe???
i don't know
anyway
i'm having a lot of sucess in not blaming H for the past in not taking it out on him today but taking him as he is today whatever the mood may be
(although I do realize I might be operating with some softened Post Traumatic Stress Disorder like vets do or something..., you know... thinking the war is still on sometimes when I know it's really been over for a long time????
however, H's reactions are not just some innocuous car backfiring that I believe to be a bomb... they are, or were the actual war)
anyway lemme ask.. and maybe i'm just ruminating out loud here. H's post makes me mad, right? He questions my morality for considering breaking my vow. He calls me a control freak (adding lots and lots of exclamation points to drive it home....). I like what lost love said about the control freak thing (of course, you did charcoal, lost love told mat to chill), but I certainly don't blame anyone for wanting control ~ over themselves.
I don't want to be blamed. I want to stop being the reason for the misery. Past/Present/and Future.
