Bring on the Rain

[SueS]

Hello!

Karen- You know, I would imagine that all the stress that you've gone through would cause your migraines. I'm glad to hear that they've decreased since your H left. My best friend is having a lot of health issues. She's also having relationship issues. She said the last time she had these health issues was when her husband had an A and they were D'ing. She had ended her current relationship and said that she already is feeling better.

Sara- Wow, what an experience for your child to go through to have to keep his brother on the phone. I know that I can't change things, but I do still have some worry that eventually my H will become suicidal. When all his young friends quit coming around, when/if his relationship with OW fails, if he has a bad month at work. Your last comment about letting him go. I am Sara, I really am. Each day it gets easier and easier to step away.

lwb- Hey there!! Yes, our H's are 2 peas in a pod. I read your thread and saw your post about getting a text re: happy hour while you were at church. That's very much where H & I are...at opposite ends of the spectrum. I'm throwing those hugs right back to you. I think of you often. Again, thanks for the exchange of emails last week!

Hey Saffie- I know you're here!! Thanks for telling me that D4 is lucky to have me. She was so sweet the other day. I had the movie "The Holiday" on tv. D4 came in during a scene where Cameron Diaz was on screen. She said, mommy, she's beautiful. I said, yes she is. She looked at me and said, mommy, you're beautiful too! Oh, my heart melted. She makes me feel so good. Hope you and the family are well. One of these days, be it a year or 20 years from now, I WILL make it to England and I will beg you to show me some sights!

Journaling-

Not a lot going on the past few days. I'd done our Federal Taxes in Jan., but knew we had to pay for State, so I was a procrastonater (did I spell that right?) and waited to file my state until the last minute.

Last Aug., the company I work for acquired 2 other rental car companies. At this time we still operate seperately, but we were told yesterday that as of Aug. 2009, we will be fully integrated. This will open up opportunities within our area. This could mean a supervisory position for me. At the very least, it would mean more exposure to more people and new job responsibilities. New things to learn and the chance at a higher salary. I told my mom that it's hard telling what the next year will bring, but I'm happy to have something to look forward to.

My best friend is coming in town this weekend!! Her brother lives near me. I hope to see her on Saturday and then D4 and I have the Twins game on Sunday. Should be a good weekend. Look at me, it's only Wed. and I'm already thinking of the weekend!

H has been decent to me the past few days. We haven't really talked much, but he's been okay. I struggle with how to act with him. There's part of me that just wants to say....Okay, this is over, we both know it, so let's just agree to be friends and get things moving. Then there's the other part that says, this man has betrayed me over and over and over. I want him to know that it's not going to be an easy road. I want him to know that what he's done is wrong. I do not want him to feel like I'm okay with his actions.

Still same old, same old for H with his emails, calls...etc. Appears as if he's got OW back, but is scrambling to hold on and make sure she doesn't change her mind AGAIN. Yes, more YouTube.

Well, it's a busy day here, so I guess I should get going.

SueS