Addie, from what you used to tell about your sitch, I always had the impression that your H is honest with you. Well, as honest as MLCer can possibly be. He was trying to protect you from having your hopes up and he was telling you exactly how and what he felt on several occasions. He is in a fog for sure, but I don't think he'd try to take advantage of you and hurt your feelings so bad again only in order to escape from his loud roommates.

May be I'm just a silly old optimist \:\)

I think you should trust your feelings, after all you know him best, if he is not sincere, you will know it in your heart.

I ask not for a lighter burden, but for broader shoulders
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M 46
H 45
D 17
M/T 23
Bomb #1 (ILYBNILWY) 12.06
Bomb #2 (OW) 12.07
Bomb #3 (chose OW over M) 9.08