Saw my counselor today. We talked about the 'niceness' of W and she really thinks she is manic. She thinks she needs a lot of therapy, medication and prayer. She is really starting to wonder if she really will move out on her own, and points out that she has been wanting to 'find herself' for the past 20 years.
We talked about God and she asked me if I believe that my intuitive and intellectual abilities are just a part of me, or do they come from God. I said that I know they are from God.
She asked me if I thought W believed the healing touch she has when massaging is her energy or is she an instrument of God. I said that I think she sees it as 'her energy'.
Counselor observed that I am much more grounded, and I have a healthy outlook on this situation. My daughters gravitate towards me for support and they know they will be safe.
She suggested I love W from a distance so that if she does walk out the door I can be at peace knowing I treated her with love and compassion up to the very end.
Odds are she will end this marriage, but it's out of fear, not because of anything else. She is a very lost soul. Please pray for her. Her name is Lorri and she is my kids mom. I love her very much but I can't help her.
