Nothing new really for me today. Having a really down day, think I have just had too much time to think and reflect on all the crap that has happened in these past few months. H did come over on sunday at 5:00. At first I was upset, I had called and asked if he could come ealier as I was sick, felt horrible and wanted some help with S19mo. H sent a text that he would be here around 5. I tried to be happy when he got here, and in fact he took our son to town so I could take a nap and that was exactly what I needed; SLEEP!!!!!!
Talked to H briefly yesterday and not at all today. Said he plans on coming over this weekend to put up our son's new playset he got last year (was too little then) I really hope he does as it will be nice to use.
Talked with a friend of my MIL's tonight who has been thru this crap before. She was very encouraging, telling me to keep fighting and gave some great advice. Also told me about a support group here in my town. It was really nice and uplifting to speak with her but at the same time i feel really down. Just dragging up the past has made me very emotional tonight and put me in a bad mood!!!! she suggested very little contact to none at all with my H until OW is completley out of the picture. However I have tried that and it didnt seem to work for us. Now that I have been more affectionate and open with H, he seems to be changing alot more. At least I have noticed several changes in his attitude and actions. I hope he really is changing and he's not "cake eating" Anyone have an opinion as to if I should be speaking with H or not???
