There and Back, up and walking #1

[SallyM]

now lwb, you know I have been far too busy dealing with, well, the ick factor, at my house to check in.

ugh. S2 got the stomach bug. the last holdout gave in at 6:30 this morning. ugh ugh ugh. will this bug ever be gone? all 3 kids home today, hopefully tomorrow will be a new day. when H came over after work I nipped out to the gym. didn't particularly want to, but omg, I needed to get out of the house and that seemed like the best option. glad I went in the end.

not much else to say. the house is quiet for now, but have clean sheets on standby in case things get ugly again.

ya know, h called me yesterday to let me know about a bonus he got for doing a good job or something like that. not a huge bonus, just this out of the blue one. and all I could think about is, gee, where is mine? god, where is even a pat on the back? I think that is one of the hardest things right now. when we were married, I always felt appreciated for all that I do. but now with h gone and in his own world, I just feel so alone in it all.

so the thing to figure out is why do I need any kind of appreciation other than from myself? I guess its the puppy dog in me. a nice head pat and ear scratch (not to mention belly rub) is sorely missed at times.

just one of those days I suppose. guessing dealing with the stomach bug from hell is probably not helping my mood. dear god make it leave my house already!