Well, tonight I am happier. The MC session went well. IN THE WORDS OF THE IMMORTAL FORREST GUMP..I may now have a F**KNClue. Another session for next week and the W has agreed to go.
It appears that my 6 page letter to my W, made her see that I do know how we got where we are and it seems I have cast some doubt in her mind once again.
The MC even told her so and pretty much told my W she might want to think about what she is doing and slow down a bit. I have opened up emotionally to my W and she now sees it. This is a complete 180 for me. I am usually withdrawn and quiet. She saw some of the man she fell in love with tonight.
Her letter to me still stated she wants out but there is some doubt there. I can see it and I can feel it in her. She told me at a restaurant after our session that she fears that if she follows thru with the D that 2 years from now I will be someone else's prince.
The letter I wrote to her was emotionally draining for me. I am now worn out and I know my W is too.
I wish I had found this site years ago. This place has helped me so much. The MC has helped me also. I have a new hope that I can save this M.
Next on my agenda..reconnect with my S from my first M. My withdrawals have a lot to do with the disconnect and pretty much no real relationship with my S due to my first W and her ability to get by with not bringing him for his scheduled visitation with me. I plan on doing that this week. He has started playing a little golf so I am taking him to the course on Thursday after work. I know he feels like I abandoned him when he was 10. I need to show him that I did not.
I feel pretty good right now. I have some hope and tomorrow looks to be a brighter day. Back into the gym tomorrow evening.
