Hi Tal, it is good to hear from you. Thanks for responding.

I am glad so many are here, too. I wish I had more time to post to everyone...I feel selfish sometimes. I will do better.

Yes, I am tired of the annaversaries, the quotes, the things that were written, the bills, and the videotape that keeps running in my head. I am weary of it all. I hope you are doing better.

I did not know I had a place of honor for what I did to the om...that brings a smile to my face, actually. It probably shouldn't, I know. That annaversary is coming up too. While my goal of convincing the om to stay away from my family was met, it sure was expensive. It cost $3600 to have a lawyer help with the criminal aspect of the case. That part is over now.

But the bastard is suing me for mental anguish and damages because he has been unable to work since I confronted him. I was supposed to have a trial on Feb., 24, 2004 but it was continued so his lawyer can concentrate on suing my wife for malpractice. My wife is also being sued for malpractice by the om's wife since the two originally came to my wife's office for marriage councelling.

Then my case will be picked up again.

My wife will lose both of her cases. Her lawyer has said so. His job is damage control as he tries to keep those people away from our assets (of which we have few). If my wife's insurance company doesn't cover the full amount of what is awarded, it comes out of our pockets. House, car, everything could go.

Aside from the hurt I have endured because of her two affairs, is it fair for me to have to lose all I own too? And what if we don't have to payout, she still owes about $100,000 for student loans, bills to her now closed practice, and lawyer fees. What about the quality of life my kids miss out on because of all of the damn bills we pay? Oh, and did I mention that my wife is now unemployed? WHY, somebody please tell me, why do I stay??