I swear that my stbxh is beyond crazy some days. This week he can't wait to get rid of me and has reverted back to blaming me 100% for our failed marriage. He had the nerve to tell me that I was crazy to think that we were 50/50 at fault cuz it's ALL me!! WTH is that???

I wish I didn't have to see him at all these days because I end up on that friggin' roller coaster all over again. Unfortunately, he is no now refusing to move his stuff out.. advised that the courts will see it as abandoning his house/child, etc. So, he stays over a couple nights a week.. Nothing I can do about it right..

In the meantime, I have been such an emotional basket-case and in many ways just wish this to be over with so that I can move on with my life. It's just so sad to have to give up the whole dream all at once.. the dream house, the family, the husband... *sigh*. I know life goes on and it will get better and I've been living in this limbo for far too long... It's just hard to see it all slip away...

Oh.. but, there is good news. Training is going well for my race which means my pants are fitting better again. Plus, I talked a good friend into running with me. \:D

AND.. the house that I love just came back on the market.. now, if only mine would sell!!