Quote: I cannot tell her that I am afraid of her leaving again because I am not. I am certain she wants to stay, but I also feel if she left that would be fine too. I am not trying to push her away. I am just tired of all of it.
I wouldn't be too sure of this. I still read in your posts that you are tired of worrying that she won't be there 100% for you, that's why you're pushing her away.
Quote: I still love her but I am finding it more and more difficult to come up with reasons to fight for this marriage.
Should I be honest and tell her that?
No. Look, you are overwhelmed by circumstances right now and feeling the urge to just run away - kind of like how our WASs got into their sitches in the first place, no?
I recommend the following:
- first, very nicely let her know you are feeling badly and need some attention to fill your love bucket. Don't blame or accuse, just ask nicely for what you need from her.
- second - just give it some time, okay? I know right now you feel overwhelmed and want to run just to be changing something. I understand. But it really won't make things any easier in the long run. When you have that feeling, things will usually look better in a day or a week. So just wait for tomorrow.
What is SAM going to do about looking for a new job? And have you spoken to an attorney about any ways to protect your assets from her judgments?
