Totally Lost after 23 years

[CBK]

Thanks - I have read a lot of the posts and have appreciated the thoughts I have seen.

Patience is what doesn't come naturally! :-) But I am doing what I can. I know I am in a marathon and not a sprint - but I was always a sprinter!

I write daily to forgive - but tend to beat myself up more than forgive, I am sure this will come eventually.

I do pray daily - of course I want miracles.

I am having a hard time detaching though. I almost asked her to move out, but then I thought that is a step backwards, not a baby step forward.

I have always been a talker, but am learning more about myself through a lot of good books. Loving What Is by Byron Katie along with the DR books have helped reconnect with who I was and where I am going.

Luckily I am on a business trip right now, so have time to reflect, write, think. Sometimes I don't think I have any more tears, but they keep on coming.

The only good thing is that I have lost 30 lbs (not the ideal way) which put me back at my college days!

I am also trying to keep my sense of humor...

Thanks Ready