SAD!!!! My dear, dear, friend!!! SOOOOO great to hear from you...even if the news itself could have been better
I have to back up Sage here. SAD even I have not yet "forgiven" CJ for what he did. I don't even THINK about it anymore. I just go on each day, in a way as Sage has suggested, "as if" I've forgiven. Who knows, perhaps one day I'll wake up and realize I HAVE forgiven.
CJ will be the first to know!
I also REALLY think that the other stressors: Job, new house, the TRIAL...are SEVERELY impeding your ability to "put this all behind you".
How can you when it's still very much, very publicly ALIVE???
But SAD, although it seems like WAY too much for any one person to take, these external stressors WILL PASS.
I don't think it's even reasonable to expect yourself to be "over it" or to "forgive" until much more time, much more evidence of faithfulness and committment had come to pass.
Please come back and post. We're here to help you through this rough time.
