Now I am guessing that the excuse will be that he isn't making enough money and he has to focus on making more money so that he doesn't have to worry so much about bills, THEN he can focus on us. I am speculating...but I know him pretty well.
I think I am resentful of him because he complains about having no money while he lives in his apartment alone and drives a new car. I, on the other hand, live with my mom and pay a mortgage and upkeep for a house I don't live in. I guess life isn't fair right?
You are right, I need to take this week and get my thoughts together. I think this will be a make or break conversation. I really feel like at this time he will say he just isn't ready to work on the marriage. I just feel like he never will be ready. The conditions will never be perfect, there will always be something. Like I said before, I just have to be prepard to follow through with what I say.
I have been asking myself..."Do I even want him....do I even want him like he WAS?" He was always negative, bad with money, and felt sorry for himself. I felt like I helped him, and maybe I did for a little while. I felt like he made up for his faults with how much he loved me...but now I am asking myself "Is love enough??" I have just grown and changed so much through all of this...I don't know if the way he was is good enough anymore.
