Hanging in there....

[Sugar and Spice]

Journaling:

Came to work Friday and chest was tight and had a pain in my back where my lungs are (I get bronchitis everytime I get sick) so I headed out to the Medi-Center located at the hospital, couldn't get into my Dr. Right before I left I got a txt from H, wanting to know if I could get off an hour early as he wanted to take us (kids & me) to Horton Hears a Who. Sent a txt back saying I was going to the Dr. and that I would let him know what was up. I'm filling out paperwork and I get a nasty txt from H that says "Gonna Call back like last time?" I sent him back a txt that pretty much said "What" and then it was on, he said several mean things like I made him feel guilty about the movies and he was inviting me and when did I ever invite him to do stuff w/me, anytime there is an olive branch extended its him doing it, etc...and at the end of one particularly mean one - Goodbye! WTF? So after a couple of texts back and forth, I hit him with:

Goodbye it is then. We need to do some sort of settlement agreement or would prefer to consult with attorney's? I'm done being f#&$*d over by you. You don't want to work it out & only want what OW has to offer? Then you are free my friend to pursue your life as you choose.

So I get "I invite you to the movies and this is what I get in return?"

So after a few more txts where he did a complete 180, things settled down a bit and I spent 5.5 leisurely hours in the ER/Medi-Center while they did an EKG and all kinds of tests to then tell me that I am developing bronchitis, but I'm not sick enough to actually get any medicine...NICE! So I get out of there in time to pick up kids and meet H at the movies, where we had a really good time. I went over to MIL house with him and we hung out for awhile and it was nice. I left and then he called and met me to do some grocery shopping and because I'm an idiot, as I was leaving I asked him the following: "So, are we still being honest about things?"

H: "Yeah, why?"
M: "I was reading some journaling I've been doing throughout this whole thing and I noticed that you've said you were coming home twice now and its been when there was "something big" with OW. The first time, you took her to Universal Studios and were supposed to come home the next day and then you said on 3/14 that you were coming home and then 6 hrs later I find out shes pregnant, and it feels like you tell me that because it keeps me around. So is that why?"
H: "No, the first time, I was going to come home and I got scared because I wasn't sure it was over. The last time, I was coming home, I was just going to stop talking to her."
M: "So you didn't know she was pregnant before you told me that?"
H: "No, I was just going to be done."
M: "What about now?"
H: "I have to be nice to her..."

This is the part I'm confused about, he keeps saying that he needs to be "nice" to her and I don't know if its because of the $$ or because they are gambling partners or if I'm just delusional. Anyway, H wen't to MIL's house where DS and DD were and for the first time since he left, he actually spent the whole night just with them. I felt terrible and I called to tell my kids goodnight and he told me if I wanted him to come over or if I needed him that he would be right there... I had asked him to go have a drink with me and he refused, then said he had no plans. He then said that OW had invited him to go play cards at her friends house, but he had said he wasn't going anywhere and said that he didn't want to be a liar so he didn't go...

My friend Matt called me Saturday at DS baseball game and H was kinda snippy about it. Matt is a friend of mine and his D goes to school w/ my DS...Matt has a boyfriend, too and H knows this.
DS game ends at approx. 8:30 and H got a txt from OW and I saw his reply was "Almost Done" so when the game was over I was burnt. We all walked out to the parking lot together, but I was just making a bee-line for the car. H was talking to S about the game, S was mad he went from batting 4th to 7th... Anyway, H gets in his car and drives by and says "ILY" and I told him to go to hell, so he turns around and says "What?" I said, you heard me, go to hell... "I told you ILY" and I said, "Means so much now that you are going to hang with OW." So we go home get cleaned up and head to Matt's - H called DS at 9:00 wondering what we were doing and again at 9:45, didn't speak to me, but wanted to know what we were doing.
Invited him to dinner on Sunday and yesterday...he says I never invite him to do anything and we are all supposed to go to a hockey game and he might actually be willing to give us a Sat. night, which hasn't happened in FOREVER.

He was very willing to come over Sunday and help me with our dog too, even though I was an idiot and refused, he was really sweet and tried to be helpful.

So any thoughts on this sudden change of behavior?

Puppy, if you are out there, I would love your take on this crazy mess...