I am going to move on and try my best to stay positive. The bad part of this is I can do this some weeks and then some weeks it's like a ton of bricks hit me and I don't want to do anything,
Don't go by your "feelings". Make decisions based on logic and common sense. You CAN do it all the time. DISCIPLINE yourself. You have to stop this negative talk and self talk. It is things like this that helped to drive your wife away. Stay focused. One shot at a time. Act happy. Be happy. Fake it if you have to. No woman wants an unhappy, negative man. Woman like upbeat, happy, confident men. Be one. Take the bull by the horns here. Show her you have had an awakening. (notice I did NOT say to TELL her or keep asking her if she has noticed your changes.. DO NOT DO THAT)
Do your own laundry. Let her ask you why you don't drop it off anymore. If she never does ask, then LET IT GO.
What does NIKE say...... "Just do it"
Enjoy your golf. Most women do not want to deprive us of our hobbies. They only have issues with it if they FEEL it has become more important than she is. At this point it will not do you any harm to focus a lot of attention to golf. It may even be to your benefit as it will take pressure off of her, which is what you have to do right now.
Don't worry. As you pull back (politely and not to be mean) you will slowly start to see her coming toward you. (a typical phenomenon in most all relationships) PATIENCE wins. Be nice to her. Say hi. Be the first to walk away. (politely) Stop doing any initiating of much of anything for awhile. Make your own decisions and come across as decisive. She has actually needed you to be the stronger one "emotionally". She has not viewed you as the "stronger" one yet. Become the stronger one. The attitude should always be... "Don't worry honey, I CAN HANDLE IT"
Then handle it with no thoughts of getting a pat on the back.
