thanks for considering me a part of the select few, shiny.
i admitted to sam that proud wasn't the correct word to use. i am happy with her self discoveries...i just wish...well you know.
i'm the one who is insecure now...so hard to get past this...so hard to trust...
i am certain we will be fine when this is all over and i know we need to learn as much as we can from this terrible experience in order to build a stronger marriage. sometimes i hate going to c because i just relive everything over again. i guess that's why i was angry she kept coffee-man from me. i am proud of her, though, for being able to raise that boundery when she needed to. she is working very hard to fix things and i am happy about that.
