"Saru mo ki kara ochiru."

[faithisbelieving]

To Nutty....I have stayed as much as possible on the couch. Throughout this, she has, at points, refused to not sleep 'in her bed'. Whereas at one point I began populating my side of the bed with pix of me and the kids, I have taken a handful down and put them on the nighttable next to the couch. I also bought a new alarm clock for downstairs.

She has NEVER been afraid of sleeping in the bed with me...another oddity. Granted...we have a kingsize bed and since the bomb, the distance between her back and me has always seemed like miles of 'No Man's Land'. She probably never stopped the kids from sleeping in the MBR bedroom as a way of putting distance between us and also, needing substitute 'comfort'.

One of my friends, totally ground-based, talked with me on the phone the other day and I totally agree with his input. His 'theory' is that they still love us but in a different frame/level...that they then go out seek to fill their emotional gaps/holes. They aren't ready for D nor wish to have it at that moment....thinking that they can keep their finacial/domestic support going while they dip their toe in the water elsewhere. When they get caught and, in my case, file, this completely undoes the plan...their status quo....and they then get ANGRY WITH US for upsetting the boat. They probably never really thought we would go thru with D and when it happens, WE become the target...the cause for all of this.
FIB