ok, i'm back. having a low pma day. c sessions have been difficult of late. i have been backing off while sam catches her breath. she was proud of the revelation she received from her counselor: she has an unhealthy desire for attention from men. i am glad that a definite problem has been revealed; knowing the problem is half the battle, right? but her having this problem makes me uncomfortable. it isn't hard to determine where this need for attention comes from, and so the problem can be solved. i guess i'm just afraid someday she will want such attention again. she wasn't happy that i didn't share her enthusiasm about the discovery. now she feels she shouldn't tell me of such things because she fears upsetting, hurting, or angering me. i don't want to be left out and i want to be supportive...
i don't know. i'm just ramblin'. thanks all for helping her. she is a good person and deserves to be happy. she and i admit that neither is doing enough to help me get past the past but i keep telling her my time will come. her needs are more pressing, i think. i'm not a martyr...i'm just tired.
