M, I don't believe anyone here has given up on your sitch. Don't get down on yourself, "easier said than done I know" you still have a lot of hope in this. I think it is a great sign that she is going to MC tonight. Keep working on yourself, you still have time to turn this around. I believe your wife still doesn't know what she wants, you have to prove to her that it is you that she wants and she would be crazy to go through with a D.