Thanks Cat. I'm approaching this very differently now and trying not to be "desperate" internally about it. I have wondered if that was working against us and me specifically.
As I drove back from the beach Sunday morning thoughts crept into my head about giving up and betrayal. Betraying my wife, our kids, my vows and God. For me giving up, letting go or how ever you want to say it felt like betrayal but I had never verbalized it that way until I read a thread by AmyC over in the Prayer Circle forum. Talk about struggling with a thought!
Well thanks to Amy and a few others I was able to get past my very confusing thoughts and feelings about betrayal and letting go. I can't even begin to describe how I feel a weight was lifted off of me.
Well off to Vegas today for a conference, I know, life is tough for some of us. I've traveled all around the world but this will be my first visit to Vegas. I'm actually looking forward to getting there and just treating it like a mini-vacation, some pool time, see a show, and basically do nothing! Oh I guess I do need to attend the conference and meet with my vendors. LOL!
If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive. - Mother Theresa
