Had a good session with my IC; 1st visit back with her in about 4 months...so i needed it. We talked a lot about self-care...really just GAL and PMA. THat's my assignment for next week...some short-term goal setting.
I head out on Thursday with S18 to go visit one of the colleges he's been accepted to... I'm looking forward to the time together with him; he's a kind, sensitive kid. I worry about how he will deal with what I'm assuming is to come on his own in a strange place (wherever he winds up will be far away from OK) I just want to give him as much love and support right now that I can.
In spite of my best intentions, I backslid a little tonight and checked H's email... already knew that he was with OW today at lunch (correct...) and there were flirty references for some big plan for Friday (when I'm out of town...) while S12 is in school. Niiice.... all I needed to go back to not snooping...I really don't want to find out what great plan they have for the day...
One of the other things I talked with IC about today is the fact that we are heading full steam ahead toward a college choice for S18...and H has said nothing to indicate any change in direction (that he will need to choose the one school that we can afford even if we are split up...) I have made the decision [at least for today and tonight] to leave this up to H. I have no knowledge about any of this likely separation except from snooping, and I'm just not ready to lay out those cards. H is going to have to be the one to explain it to me and to S18.
THen it's on to HS graduation and our trip to Europe...and then, who knows...
