Your wife chose this course once before and, for whatever reason (perhaps due to your efforts), she changed her mind and waffled. But the decision never went far from her thoughts. In a sense, I think it was always there, waiting for "justification" to re-activate it.
When you failed to provide her with a life of happiness void of difficulties, the desire to bolt came to life actively again.
You know how it is when you've always wanted to do something, but you've been frustrated and kept from it over and over again? Eventually you're going to SEE an opportunity to go for it and, regardless of the cost, you're going to take it.
I think that's your wife right now.
She HAS to go down this road. And I know that's NOT how you wish it would turn out, but I really think she does.
The hope that still hangs out there, in my opinion, is that she will be broken in the process and finally confront reality. But this is not a hope to be clung to by you. Your role in this now is to get out of her way and let her go. At the same time, you must move forward and find your way out of your own mess.
There is a bigger plan at work here Frank, and I mean that in the spiritual sense. You have the opportunity to be a key player in this plan, but you can only accomplish it on your knees so to speak. I do believe that God is calling you back to Him, all the more so because of the battle that is waging around your wife.
Take care of yourself. See yourself healed, continue making progress on your work, and most of all continue humbling yourself to God, trying to find what it is that He is wanting of you.
Your wife needs to travel this road.
Blessings,
Bill
"Don't tell me the sky is the limit when there are footprints on the moon."
