[girlfromipanema]

I just can't continue on this way. I don't feel depressed, but I feel hopeless and very, very sad. If I could have my M back the way it used to be, I would certainly choose that over ending it, but it feels like mission impossible. The weekends are so incredibly difficult. It's like living with a mute. Then Monday rolls around and I see him happily interacting with people at work (including OW) and he's the charming, charasmatic, kind man I fell in love with. With me he's so cold and detached. I definitely don't feel any love for him today, yesterday, the day before, the day before that... living with him is just too much for me.

At this point, I don't see any other way.

I won't "lose" my job, but I'll have a very difficult decision to make for sure.

Thanks for rooting for me. I do appreciate it.