Supermom and the Brighter Tomorrow

[JennyF]

I'm feeling better now that I've had a moment to breathe. AAAAAHHHHH! That's better. Thanks blindsided.

I printed out the calendar with the last 3 months on one sheet. I wrote in and hilighted all of his cheques on the approprate dates and then all of the mortgage and day care pmts and hilighted them in a different colour.
When he comes tonight drop S off I'm just going to hand it to him and tell him to look at it when he gets home. That I'm not trying to take him for all he's worth, I'm just asking to do what he said he was going to do and that's pay the mortgage and the day care. See, the mortgage isn't just the debt of the home. Since we refinances so many times about 25% of the mortgage is actually acrued debt rolled in. He doesn't see it that way and thinks he's just paying for me to live here.
I'm really realizing just how inept H is when it comes to these things. Down right ignorant. He's always been that way and obviously by the debt it's gotten us into trouble before. But now I just want him as far away from my finances as possible. He's going to screw himself I can just see it and I don't want to be the one he blames for it. Although I can see that's already happening.

He doesn't have the $$ to pay it now so I'm going to tell him to go and get a line of credit for himself and pay it so it's not overdraft on the joint account. As soon as he does that I can get his name off that account.

We'll see how drop off goes. I just have remind myself to stay present and not let him get the better of me.
J~
Now I'm babbling...journaling I guess.