My class was a little bit of a disappointment...I thought it was going to be held in a dance room, which would be air conditioned and have a water cooler. I rode my bike to class, and there was a sign on the door that they had moved to the quad...outdoors, in the sun! Believe it or not, Sunday in Northern California was in the mid-80s! So I got to the place and there was a group of people, in a circle, each with a hula-hoop. I looked for the teacher person and found someone who sort of looked like she was in charge, and she turned out the be the teaching assistant. No teacher on the first day of class! Also, I never got the memo that we were supposed to bring our own hoops. Luckily there was an extra, and so I stood there and did my stuff. I really wanted to learn something new, so eventually the "assistant" did show me a way to get the hoop from my hand above my head to my hips, while keeping it spinning. Yay! A new move! Like I said, the heat was too much for me, and hooping is actually quite aerobic. The class was supposed to go 1.5 hours, but I left after 45 minutes. Hopefully next week they will be more organized.
Dating Again...
Well friends, as our friend AG would say, I am filled with Angst today. In spite of all the fun I have been having, this dating stuff is not for wimps. I actually made an appointment to talk to a counselor because all kinds of uncomfortable feelings are coming to the surface now. (Because of insurance changes this will be a new counselor)
Why is it that I could be getting to know a new female friend, and if we do something on Thursday and I don't see her again over the weekend and I don't know when I will see her again that would be just A-OK with me?
I am feeling very miffed (again) because CG couldn't' go with me on Saturday (although he sent me a lovely e-mail and I had a great time with my girlfriend instead) and he also can't go to something on Wednesday we had talked about. I am not pursuing. I am sitting tight. But this is hard. I should NOT be feeling this insecurity. I have been even thinking about calling him and telling him I don't want to see him anymore. Isn't that crazy?
So I think that the D does play up our fears and our insecurities. I am hoping that whoever the insurance will pay for this time is a good counselor. I haven't felt this insecure and flummoxed in a very long time.
After all, the last time I "dated" was almost 30 years ago!
Sheesh!
SG
Survival Goddess "The most common way people give up their power is by thinking they don't have any." -Alice Walker
