omg, just me, you are so right. I HAVE been walking around like it's MY fault he did this. Granted, I had a major hand in things going wrong in the marriage, but that is never a reason or justification for an affair.
I've been having problems last couple of days thinkning that she's some fabulous person and I'm nothing. I know she works with him (at a college), so she obviously has a degree. I didn't get my college degree -- I moved to NYC when I was 19 and worked my ass off and got a record deal with RCA instead.
I feel like a piece of [censored] and nothing compared to her right now. And I don't even know anything about her, nor do I want to know. When will this feeling end??? By the way, I'm not braggin, but I've always been a hot number. I'm 38, but everyone tells me I look 25. I'm like 95 pounds, pilates body (hey, rca doesn't sign ugly people -- lol) and YET since this happened, I just think I'm nothing. I SO well read, everything from Capote to Faulkner and everything in between. I KNOW I have all this going for me, but now I'm in "compare and despare" land. I feel like vomiting evertime I think of "them". And H is acting like this is the greatest thing ever and he can't wait to get on with his life with her.
