2nd Noah; I am praying for you and everyone else here everyday...really..I pray so much that I wonder if anyone is listening up there.. I have talked to an attorney but have not filed...I need his healthcare, money, etc..I won't say anything to H cause I'm standing and right now he is flying high...I'm sure his OW would give him the money to do it and maybe has...I don't even know...I'm shocked everyday with something new....I am having terrible nightmares every night....I'm so tired, and I feel like I"m going to have a nervous breakdown...my heart has never pounded so hard...today all the thoughts of everything he has said to me came pouring in....I got teary eyed but didn't cry...he can't mean it, I won't let myself believe it... I really do love him.....I guess only time will tell but at this point it's looking like he will never come home...I'm trying to just do my thing but sleeping is horrible....I do take stuff to sleep but I still wake up at least 10 times a night...
And I totally understand what you are saying about the years... my daughter even told my H she doesn't understand how he can just walk out after 29 years......he told her he didn't expect a 14 yr old to understand relationships....she said, "wow,dad, I'm 15, you don't even know how old I am"....I am beginning to understand that they are really taken over by something...
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Anyway, we just all have to stick together and get each other through all this fog....
