I think I feel smothered

[WAS32]

Hey there Sandi2. The comment I made about tension was not because of the posts in here but was refering to my H. I have tried to explain this place to him but he just thinks that it is a place to pick up single men. I know that it is BS, but he thinks that way. I am sure it is out of his own guilt that makes him think that way. I am trying very hard to work on my M and I certainly wouldn't be picking up men at this time. Not even interested in anything else but my M. I know deep down somewhere I really do want this to work. It's just the trust issues that I have. Somedays I feel we are back to where we were a year ago. Him being all stressed with work and the business. He was telling me that he couldn't handle it ect...not telling me he felt there was a problem in the M. I always thought I was doing the right thing by letting him have some space and going on golf trips with his buddies to just get away from the stress. As it turns out it was the wrong thing to do and here we are again, in golf season and I want to tell him no GOLFING. I have major trust issues with this and I am not sure how to handle it. Some days are good for me and others are just plain rotten. He is having a hard time with my bad days because in his eyes this is done and over with. He made a mistake and he regrets it so I should be over it too. I am not. And I really don't know when I will be.

So this kinda relates to you SDog. It is amazing the stupists things that can set a person off and make them think about the A. For those of us that have been hurt by our S, it takes along time to get past it. Especially when you had a great amount of trust in them. It hurts that someone you love would hurt you so much and it is hard to believe that you won't do it again. There is a guard that gets put up and its very hard to let it down. If you love your W then time is all you have. Make sure you tell her you love her and once in awhile do something special and out of the ordinary for her. She will come around if there are any feelings for you. Hang in there!!!!