Help me act AS IF, Thread 4

[newnamenewlife]

I lie awake at night trying to think of 180s. I feel like I've used them up since I stopped saying ILY, stopped calling and pursuing H and become much more patient and calm with my kids. H complained that I let them push my buttons too easily and he was right. In fact, he did comment on how I'm more relaxed with the kids--but he implied that I'm like that because he's on his way out of our R or something.

Anyway, you're right. It's just hard to really take the reins as far as initiating the renovation that will allow him to move out and not sure I should. He also wants me to speak with a collaborative lawyer and is urging me to call one. I am resisting that too.