I really hear what you are saying. I know in no way that my H is over the OW...he has told me that. AND for him to try 100% NOT to interfer, well he has already gone back on that too. I know he will interfer. I know him all to well now. It is hard though to remain detached from him. I am trying and dont worry, no sex with him. Yes it will be hard, but I can manage...I just kept reminding myself that he werent going to control me that way.
I have noticed that I am much more relieved when he is just alone, no OW. Then I in a way really can see him for who he is. Trust me, I do not obsess about the OW as much as I use to. I dont wake up in the mornings sick or feeling broken like I use to. H doesnt take up my every thought. This is a process and slowly I am making it through.
My H just in my belief has the idea that he and I can date other people and even each other if we want....I dont think so. OH, when will he come through this tunnel? Is he lost forever??
and just to be clear, H hasnt been in my every thought today.
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
