#3 Did I find DB too late? Maybe not...

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I still reach out to him here and there. Part of it is that I just crave the touch. The other part is that I want some little positive touch between us just so that it's not completely gone. As much as I know he craves his solitude, I want him to remember what it feels like to sit on the stairs lacing up your shoes while someone scratches your back. Sometimes while driving, I'll reach over and touch his neck. We were very PDA for the first few years, then it died out. He definitely stopped all PDA so I know the little times he reaches out means a baby step. During our conversation the other night, when he said he didn't want to do something with me and get me confused that it meant something I said to him, "On the flip side, if I reach out and touch your hand, it just means that I wanted to touch your hand right then."

I'm mailing H a little note today telling him what a great time we had yesterday and I'm going to thank him for driving the whole time so I could work on my crossword puzzle. When we were dating I sent notecards all the time. That's a good thing for a WOA guy.