MLC is CRAZY!!! What a Roller Coaster!!!

[2ndnoah]

tpaschal, have you been doing this whole divorce thing for almost a year now? My heart goes out to you. Is your divorce final? Have you been able to drag it out? If so, how? I need lessons? Did you file or him? Are you still hopeful? Has he ever came back or turned around?

I am just amazed that I have spent my entire life with my hubby and after 31 years together, he just walks out and has never turned back. I guess that is the hardest thing for me to understand. There was no warning, no nothing. I kissed him good-bye, said I will see you this evening, I have a surprise for you when you get home, and he replied...don't bother, I'm not coming home. I thought he was talking in his sleep and what a weird thing for him to say!!! Little did I know. It just truly amazes me how he could do that and after 7 months has never looked back, changed his mind, wanted to get together and talk, NOTHING! Why???

tpaschal, you have been doing this for a lot longer than me. I admire your strength and endurance. I wonder when will I know to give up hope? When do I accept that my life with him with us is over? When will I stand up for myself, my boys, and my life and say enough? At this point....I still love him. When will I stop loving him? Caring for him? Want to hear his voice? See his face? Get an email from him? See his hands? Feel his touch? I miss him so much. What he is looking for he has right here at home. What we have is something that many people search for their entire life. How do I get him to see that?