Maybe I missed something last week.. She kept telling me I had nothing to worry about with (OM) - SHE WASN'T GOING ANYWHERE WITHOUT ME ??? BUT MY GUT FEELING WAS SHE JUST WANTED TO HAVE US BOTH...If she had finally admitted to anything and told me she had broke off contact and how sorry she was... My heart is so full of LOVE for her.. I would have believed her and started working on all the issues.. But she keeps in complete denial .. Then when you re-read some of the other post from yesterday- Secrets incoming to me about her actions...

It has now been 2 full days since have heard from G/F.. I always would hear from G/F while she goes to work in the morning NO MATTER WHAT-But no call this morning:( .. I haven't called Brother Inlaw or other family members -Like I would before -HUGE STEP FOR ME !!1

But I really feel I know G/F -I believe she is done.. I also remember a little side thing she told me while staying at my house last week..

G/F had dream she saw me kissing another woman and broke it off with me in her dream.. She woke up and told me she had dreamed about me...

I just blew it off though.. Funny how less than 2 days later... Bam... On Friday night at her house with her family and friends-I felt I was being attacked verbally on Friday night - To the point I found myself defending myself and pride and self respect..Less than 1 hour after I went to my house - Guess who appeared?? Then they were laughing and saying those brutal things and laughing about me..

She is the type - When not pursued - I am afraid she will move on..


MY HEART IS BROKEN ..

Thank the Lord for you all hear to hear me and help me through this ..

Gotta go for now to work - But will be online in a little bit.. Advantage of being self-employed..

V/R,
Mark

M:43
G/F:45
R: 1 yr and 8 months

We all want to be loved...
With someone who is in Love with You