I have to print out my e-mails for the parenting evaluator and as I'm going back through them I realize that I put far too much pressure on my W and she just snapped.
I wish I could have found the DB books early on in August instead of in January because I'm beginning to see where I pressured her and may have drove her away for good.
I also pinpointed the baginning of her affair w/ OM as beginning on Nov. 7 - that was the day he took her into his office and kissed her when she was distraught and crying. We had an argument about her not being in counseling that weekend prior and looking at everything, we were on fast-forward going down hill from there.
I'm different now, but my W doesn't care to see it or know it at all. I guess I have a regret that I didn't discover the DR book earlier. It may have kept us from being here now.
I have another appointment w/ a DB coach in the morning, so I'll ask her her advice on where to go from here. I'm trying to stay as positive as I can, but the way W treats me makes it very tough to have any hope for us at all.
