peace: At lunch time today, after talking to my H, I felt awful and almost called a friend but then I remembered what someone posted on someone's thread - friends run away from needy people.
I know some people who would be more than happy to listen. However, I decided to be still and ended up doing housework - out of obedience to God. It was strange. It really felt like God spoke to me - to trust Him and get on with my life, even though I did NOT feel like doing it, the chores, etc.
A bit more about today's interaction with my H: Today, he called at about 1pm asking if it was ok for him to drop by at 7:30pm. I was shocked. The conversation... Me: Are you doing dinner with me? H: Wasn't planning on it. Me: I mentioned <dog's swimming on Mon and lunch/dinner today>.... in my email. H: I mustn't have finished reading your email. Me: Don't you read my emails? H: It has been a really busy week. Is 7:30pm OK? Me: Can't you come earlier? H: I am out of state with <his parents>. Me: I didn't know you're out of town. Yes, that's fine. I will try to keep my emails short then. H: It really was a very busy week for me. Me: I understand. That's OK. <Dog >actually has swimming on Monday and I know it's too rushed for you to pick her up then. H: Actually I couldn't have made it on Monday because I am going to a concert...
I was upset because he didn't invite me to the concert and I was worried if he was going with OW... But I prayed, did chores and cooking, even though I would much rather have just cried in bed.
Anyway at about 4:30pm, my H called and said he got back earlier than planned. He must have felt bad. But God worked in my H!
He came over and we chatted. He also asked if I was happy at work and about the layoff rumors... And he found out that I omitted something vital in my tax return. So he very kindly helped me figure out the numbers for the item... Very kind of him.
I asked him if the concert tickets were free and he said yes. Then I asked if a group from work was going, and he said, Actually he was going with the lady (who works for him) and her 2 daughters. Then I asked if she was still married. He said "Yes, but it's not a happy marriage". I still feel hurt though that he didn't invite me.
Then we walked our dog and ate at home. I had cooked something for him and something else for me.
Then we were intimate. He kept saying he hoped I have a good trip.
