ok, bit of an update as i am having a paranoid evening and cant sleep for it (11.20pm in uk and i'm knackered)
Think I'm doing the step backwards at the moment TBH. Doing everything I think I should be and don't feel i'm getting anything back at all.
W went to a friends for drinks sat night and got in at 2.15am, but i can't help but think there was something more. maybe i'm just paranoid (highly likely) but don't understand why a night round a friends from 7.30pm ish goes on til 2am when they have young kids !!! Just seems odd to me. Also, she got into bed clothed, then didn't sleep for over an hour (when i crashed out after she woke me up). Then she woke up early and didn't go back off and she is usually a big sleeper and I know I only really struggle for sleep when paranoid or guilty !!!
So, my questions I guess. When would you expect to notice changes of some sort ? My W is being ok, were not arguing but she has avoided me a lot today it feels even though we've not been in house or same room together for very long.
It's very tough this, think i'm doing reasonably well but having a tough time not to ask the wrong things, say the wrong things. Just trying to remain nice and spend loads o timewith boys and do stuff round house that needed doing but normally i would put off. I don't mind doing these things, i've just always before put them off till really necessary. Still lots of other stuff that needs doing and i'd like to do, but I don't want to spend money on doing stuff to house if we were to split up and then it's wasted money if you get me as W would no doubt stay in the house for some time and every penny I would need.
Also struggling a bit with the snooping, not fallen back but there is that part where you think you'd rather find something that confirmed your fears, though I know this gains nothing.
Anyway, will try and sleep now, any responses very welcome.
