I'm at a internet cafe right now. Still no dang connection at home. May have it tomorrow but I won't hold my breath!!
So to let you all know whats going on...
Tuesday H and I had to sign some papers (for D to travel with just one parent) we went to lunch first. It went pretty good except that H got to talking about the R. I told him that wasn't something I wanted to talk about but he said "we never talked about it when we were together and that wasn't good. It's something we should talk about" I just thought that why now? You know? So after luch when we were leaving I asked him if spending time with me made him unconfortable. He said no it's actually more enjoyable now. I told him I was trying not to nag and he said he knew that and appreciated it. So we went and signed the travel documents and he left me off at the bank. I gave him a kiss on the cheek and told him thanks for lunch.
The rest of the week was just normal for us.
I've been trying to process our conversations but realize that I'm over analysing them so I've tried to stop.
He came by yesterday to fix something for us and then lreft to see a friend about issues they're having.
Today he took D to the beach. I asked if I could go and he said it wouldn't be healthy. I didn't ask to whom. He looked sorry that I couldn't go though.
He told me that I need to seperate my emotions form reality. I agreed that I'm too emotional. He said that he understands that I need to cry and that soon it'll get easier. He said he's shed his tears.
well, I gotta go check in on you guys. I'll try and check in here again really soon,
Jen
Jen *The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present*
