Thanks puppy, realized that where I used to prepare for her coming over, now I don't think much about it.
In my heart of hearts I still haven't accepted that this is over, though I have a serious question about whether it can be fixed and whether I want her back. I think that once she gets back in the house and starts coming home to be alone every night, it's really going to hit her what she's done. Will probably take a few months, but I think it'll happen. Of course I could be wrong, but that was the pattern 9 years ago - the longer she was alone and looking for connections with others, the more she began to miss me.
She mentioned the field work she has to do and didn't sound like she was looking forward to the extended period in the field this summer - this is the time she'll be with OM. I think that time is what is really going to be the determining factor. Either she'll have me as the good friend who's always been there for her to compare with him who ends up being not so good a friend, or it'll cement their R.
Couple of other things I remember from yesterday - she kept asking me what my family and friends thought of her. Major guilt is probably starting to sink in. Especially since she's pretty close to some of my friends.
Email from her this morning thanking me for talking, saying she really enjoyed hearing what I was doing, that it sounded like I was doing interested things that I was excited about, and that she hoped we could continue to be friends.
