How do they walk away?

[ddstartingover]

I know we will survive. It's getting there that is exhausting us. I wake every day, usually about 4 times before I finally get up at 4:30 wondering how I can get through another day---and why do I want to. My only answer is my kids, but how much will I get to see them when this is all put into motion. They are all I have left.

I guess I have a unique situation since my H insists that we try to arrange a schedule that will allow each of us to see them all every day. He doesn't want to miss out on the time he has with them. When I suggest that this can't happen, I'm the B that will use his kids against him..............I was only trying to point out how impossible it would be. I thought it was hard before, not being loved----but feeling his waves of hate are much worse.

Sorry---got off on my problems. I'm here with you. Journalling does help.