Refuse To Lose, Part VI

[AliSuddenly]

Gosh, I cant believe that text message she sent you! Such a terrible accusation and anyway, you are her Ds father, why does she WANT you to mess up and make things "easy for her", doesnt she want her D to have a good R with her father and lots of parenting time??? Can she honestly believe it wouldnt be in her D interest to have a solod R with you? Why is she so gleeful that you may be messing things up? Its insane. Wonder if it harks back to her own R with her father..I'm still wondering about what her R with him was like, cos she has that Saturn directly conjunct her Sun stuff and thats heavy. Oppressive, restrictive, tough to live up to, lots of things, but not fun!

I think you are being very strong. Especially when you said you and your T were talking about the fact that of course you will get over this... I was amazed, especially after such a traumatic breakup that you are already resilient enough to voice that. I am still not hopeful I will ever get over my BF! Silly I know, but I still feel so trapped in my old life and wishing I could get it back.

Sounds like you are handling things really well and well done for the exercising! You put me to shame.

Ali
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Me: 37 BF: 34 T: 9 years
IDLYA: 2 Nov 07
Own flat: 26 Jan 08
Depression confirmed: 4 Mar