Hey yoyo, Camping is next weekend. 365 days in hell...........Weird thing, today I did not realize it until I was half way there... Son and I spent the day at the coast, lunch flying kites and digging for treasures.... Half way there I realized the 365 days ago after I found the pic's I headed out on this same road.... not planning on coming back...but.... I thought about my son and how he would never understand and would not know the truth.... I ended up coming home.... I said I would give it a year... well here it is a year later and I am still not happily married... Have I failed? Not really I mean I have come a long way... but things are not right. after the beach I went out to the bar...sat by myself...I could not bring myself to really get involved with the people there....why can't I just say s@rew it and be happy with my home life and cheat on my wife...in a way it would make things so much easier...W has not been called yet for a second interview....she has been so nice. I mean everything up to coming short of being man and wife.... I WILL NOT GO ANOTHER YEAR.... if she does not have a job soon WE NEED TO GO TO RETRO or it is over. I have lost not only my marriage but I am losing my love for her. I don't hate her... even though I feel I should. But I can't honestly say I love her any more... maybe it time for me to say I love you but I am not in love with you...
Good night Husband
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
