If you stayed all night in front of H's house that night, your husband should have:
1) not laid a finger on you.
2) called the police.
You are STILL blaming yourself for his abuse, saying you should have left and it wouldn't have happened.
I am thinking about you, know you love this man, but when you say things haven't been normal for 12 months, you are forgetting the other acts of violence that was heaped on you during your entire marriage. Drunk, sober, covered in paint, doing a hula hoop, your husband has no right to touch you.
You are receiving such emotional responses because we care.
