Enjoying my life!!!

[kissak]

Thanks Guys...that did make a little more sense....I did tell him that I didnt want to be an option.

I have to tell you what he told me on Friday. He texted me and said that we needed to talk. I didnt reply, then he called me.

He told me that I was right. He couldnt give me a fair chance. He said he had decided to be by himself for a while and it didnt have anything to do with the OW. Matter of fact, she was working things out with her old boyfriend. H said we are man and wife, but we are separated. I agreed. He said that he could be happy or give me a fair chance until he could decide what he wanted out of life. He had to find himself. I told him that it could take a long time and he agreed.

So, I thought maybe this guy had found his brain. He told me that he was going to try 100% not to interfer with the OW and her boyfriend.

So, quite honestly I felt a big weight lifted off of me. I cant explain it really. I really did feel better. Well, today we had alot going on....my Son won his ball game!!! Then he had tkd testing! Passed!! Then I had a shower to go to. Busy day. Well, I was around H alot. Evidently he wants to think of me as a friend with benefits. What is up with that??? I told him no like 3 times!! He has even texted tonight. I havent answered him.. Im quite tired of it...Im not going to be his sex buddy....he is really making me sick.

He called me earlier today however to tell me that he had texted OW's bf....said he wanted to clear his concious. Wanted to tell on ow I believe....In my opinion, trying to cause problems. I just told him that he needed to let it go and leave them alone. Told him that the OM needed to find out on his own about OW. Just like my H did....I told him he better leave him alone. This guy is a cop...well H told me that I didnt have to worry about that because the OM texted my H back and told him if he texted him again he would get him for harassment!! I kinda laughed at that!

I see my H as this immature, weak man. Who hasnt a clue still. OMG, he has so far to go. I really am getting to the point were I really can see how far he still has to go....yes, all that he told me yesterday about finding himself made sense, but next week he will think he has found himself and I have to remember that he is so wishy washy that I cant believe him.

Im so looking forward to next weekend!! Im going on a girls night out!! Cant wait! No kids!!

I want to be the one my H wants only. It may be a long time before that will ever happen.

He really is making a fool of himself.

He is nothing like the man I use to know. Where did he go??