Beauty is still holding on ths site and kids..

[BEAUTYandWAH]

Hi Joie!
I got new eye shadows today. I am going to try different colors~ I am still looking for other 180s. It is hard but pretty fun to find out about myself.

Girl!
Yes, you are right about the book. Some info are 'hun???' I am rediscovering myself and it is fun to see what I have done was right or wrong. I think I am 'doormat' type for a long time. I gained so much control my life and am glad I am no longer doormat.

Journaling---So far, my weekend is very quiet. H started a new job and he does not like it. He says he is happy to make some money thou. H wants to go to lunch together tomorrow after work. He says he miss kids.

Last night was good too. We went grocery shopping and had dinner together. We had to stop by in-laws house but we decided to cook dinner there after all. We cooked and ate together while in-laws play with kids and have pizza which was delivered before we got there. So H and I were alone in the kitchen/dinning area. We had long conversation about just about any topics. Out of blue, I asked H if he will ask me out (I just wanted to do something grown up things...) He said..."we are cooking and having dinner together aren't we?" So, I am thinking he is trying althoug I want a DATE! It is a process and I am willing to accept the baby step.

One topic we have been talking about is his famiy reunion. His parents and sisters already think I am going and we talked about it multiple times. It was planned from 2-3 years ago. He was absent from all family conversation past 6 months and he just didn't pay attention to what was going on. A few days ago he finally talked to me about it. This is the quote from text..

"hey lovely... i feel like no matter what between us...i would like to come to reunion this summer. ur not being left out. "

"no matter what between us".. I feel it means 'I don't know what it would look like at the time' It is going to be a long process if we are going to work on M...
Beauty