>>Almost like I'm sure something bad will happen.<<
Well... the truth is, isomething bad CAN always happen... just like good can always happen too. You just can't let the negative feelings destroy your life day to day. That's a waste of precious time. Life is too short you have to enjoy every moment of living and be thankful for the small things. I'm not saying you aren't thankful, I'm just saying it's more important to focus on those positives instead of the negatives.
I know that's not easy, but make yourself read and think positive things, make that a goal. And over time, it will get easier.
And over time a lot of those negative feelings, and the insecurity will fade too.
There is no arriving, ever. It is all a continual becoming.
