Patience is key

[addie]

Stella, I really do feel the same way. It would be different if we had not separated.

I got an interesting call from H last night at 3 a.m. I couldn't tell whether he'd been drinking or whether he was just tired because it was so late.
He said he misses the companionship, our talks and that coming back for S11 IS a good enough reason. He had mentioned this yesterday and I said with all that's happened in the last 3 months, I would not agree to him returning for S. I pointed out he's still very confused and really needs to look at the causes of his constant unhappiness and that I no longer want to be dragged into that confusion. I said our sitch is not typical at all because we will definitely be living in different cities after the next 2 months and I have to protect S and myself from getting our hopes up. I mentioned that none of what I've said comes from anger or vengence and he said he believes that.
Then he asked me what it would take to have me move with him (if he gets a job in another city). I said I would have to think about it but I know that firstly certain issues would have to be addressed.
I know that we're not ready to move together to another city - it would be extremely stressful at this point.
He's coming by again this afternoon and we're going to do some cooking like last weekend.