I thought of something else. I have a sense that I need to send one more apology letter. I have sent many in the past 2 years. The last one was Thanksgiving. Also a "text" apology in Dec.
The reason I'm thinking I need to do this is because I read (in the past 2 days) all the cards and letters she gave me. For the first time, I am seeing how much she loved me and how foolish and selfish I was. It's like I'm reading these for the first time. "I was blind but now I see." Time after time I acted selfish, needy, demanding, etc. I did not appreciate what she had to offer and was always demanding (or asking) for more. I see now what a fool I was.
What does anyone think of sending one, "last", apology letter stating the above and asking forgiveness and expressing an interest in establishing a friendship (whenever she's ready)?
