a bit more journaling, I'm trying not to analyze things and definitely not over analyze like I would back when this situation started. But something has been eating at me and I noticed it again yesterday evening when I went to pick up a rug she had cleaned. It's the rug for our entry way at the beach house.
So she's clearly done some light dating, is exploring options, trying to find herself and what she wants. Well on the build it book shelf by the phone and where she keeps her laptop, a place she's at alot, right there on the shelf still being displayed, our wedding album. Then on the lowest book shelf, two books I gave her, the Five Languages of Apology and Getting Back Together. Odd because all the other books like this she's packed up and our big wedding photos were taken down once the sep agreement was signed. So why has she not packed up these things?
Well I'm not going to spend cycles trying to figure it out but it is an interesting thing nonetheless. To me I look at it as a tiny signal that she's not done, a bit of confirmation in actions. But I will not place any hopes on this extremely tiny crumb.
If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive. - Mother Theresa
