God give me the patience and the strength...2

[WCW]

TOH, I think I understand how you feel but do not deny what is going on with your H AND WITH YOU. I was in a R and wasn't sure if I wanted to stay with that guy or not, the very first time he raised a hand to me I ended it. I am in a M with H, he sleeps on the couch. One weekend we had I thought was very nice together, when I was going to bed I took his hand and asked him to come to bed with me. He exploded and we had the only physical fight in our then 10 years. I was black and blue and there were broken doors. It wasn't worse because H was not strong then as he was just at the end of 9 months of recovering from a real bad injury. It was also when ow was high priority in his life. I didn't leave, I think he snapped that night and I will probably never know why. It has not happened again.

If you want to stay in a M with your H that is your decision.
If you want him back in your house that is your decison.
What you MUST do is change what you are doing!
I keep asking you what is your H seeing when he looks back to see what he is leaving behind.
TOH, what woman is he seeing?
Is that a woman he wants to be home with?

Start over.
Read DR, 5LL, Mars and Venus, Passionate Marriage, and books on how to control you and your anger.