Thanks Sandi for your input, I really do appreciate it. Yes I am impatient, that is something I am working on. My W is worth holding out for and saving our M. I know that I did not put enough love into the deposit in our marriage that I should have done, as many others here, we thought everything was fine.
I have decided that I would wait the whole time if needed, in NC it takes a year for a D to be final, that is over 7 months from now. I will work hard to do what is needed to make me a better person and hopefully she will see the changes that take place. I want nothing more than to save our family as that is the most important thing in my life.
Really Sandi, thank you for being honest with me, I don't get offended by your comments and I really appreciate you taking the time to come here and give your feedback.